The Hate of Hating Someone

"Wag niya akong subukan!"

I'm a compassionate girl pero ang compassion ko ay may limits din. Mabait ako kung sa mabait, pero kung ayaw mong magpaawat sa pagiging insensitive mo, eh wag mo na akong kausapin. May pride ako, and yes, paminsan sumosobra rin, pero I make it a point na sumobra siya kapag nasa tamang position ako. Kapag alam kong nasa tamang lugar ako, talagang hindi ako mag so-sorry sayo. Initiative is the key in winning me back. A simple 'sorry' will be enough for me. After nun, I'm sure lalambot narin ako and mag so-sorry din.

So what's with that? Eh kasi may insensitive kasi akong friend na nakakasakit na sakin. I was so concerned about her pa naman, tapos gaganunin lang niya ako!!! How dare her! Thinking na ang dami ko pa namang naitulong sa kanya in the past! (Yes, I'm counting her blessings brought about by our friendship) Oh and I just remembered, kapag ako naman ang nangangailangan hindi naman niya ako tinutulungan! I'm not asking for her help naman, yung simpleng pagiging thankful lang by being nice to me ang hinihiling ko and yet hindi parin niya magawa. Instead, she gives me this nasty facial expression pa dahil naging concerned lang ako sa kanya.

Kung alam lang niya kung gaano ko siya tinitiis tuwing nagkikita kami. Hindi ko siya tinitiis dahil friend ko siya, tinitiis ko siya dahil kawawa lang siya sakin kapag nagalit ako. Kapag nagalit kasi ako, nananakit ako physically at brutally pa. I can honestly say na kaya ko talaga pumatay nang tao kapag nagagalit ako without any remorse afterwards. Hindi ako nagyayabang o naninindak, kaso yun talaga ang totoo.

So ikaw na pinatatamaan ko nito, ayaw kitang patayin dahil kahit pano mahal parin kita, kaya naman MAGTINO KA NA INSENSITIVE! HINDI MO PAG AARI ANG MUNDONG ITO! HINDI LAHAT NANG TAO LULUHOD SAYO AT MAGTIYATIYAGA SA UGALI MO! MAGING SENSITIBO KA NAMAN!

Ulitin mo pa ang ginawa mo sakin at malilintikan ka na talaga! Kung natatakot ka na marinig ang mga pagkakamali mo (na I'm sure ide-deny mo kasi alam mo na totoo!) at mabara sa mga sasabihin ko, wag mo na ako subukan!

Wag na wag mo nang i-brought up itong topic na ito sakin. If you want to prove to me of how sensitive you are, (Kung may balak kang magbago) just shut the hell up and show me how sorry you were! Kung hindi ka talaga sensitive, then let me just hit you in the face! Or just DIE!

And did I just entitled this entry as "The Hate of Hating Someone"? Perhaps it should have been "The Love of Hating Someone"?=P

Autograph

Ever since bata pa ako, mahilig na talaga ako sumagot nang mga autograph books. Actually, mahilig akong sumagot nang kahit anung tanong, mababaw man o super personal. I answer practically just about everything! Hehehe... Kaya naman ngayon ay ilalagay ko ang ilang facts about me sa isang autograph-like na format. Wahahaha!!! You can't stop me from disclosing dark things about myself!

Basics

Name: Marie Kris Mañalac Herrera

Nickname: Marie Kris, Marie, Kris, Mk, Botch, Botchay

Age: 20

Birthday: July 29, 1988

Birthplace: Pasay City

Zodiac sign: Leo

Chinese zodiac sign: Dragon

Vital statistics: 34-30-36 (Hala ni-reveal talaga! Who cares right?)

Civil status: Single

Religion: Roman Catholic

Height: 5"4 or 5"6

Weight: 110 lbs

Shoe size: 8 1/2

Eye grade: Left-500/ Right-450

Education

Schools:

Little Dipper Elementary School, Cavite City (Nursery)

La Consolacion College, Mendiola, Manila (Prep school)

O.B. Montessori Center Inc. Sta. ana, Manila (Grade school)

Saint Paul University Quezon City (High school)

University of Santo Tomas España, Manila (College, BS Psychology)

Favorites

Actor: Matt Damon

Actress: Natalie Portman

Movie: Transformers

Director: Andrew Adamson

TV program: E News

Cartoon: Full Metal Panic Fumoffu

Cartoon character: Suppi or Spinel Sun (Cardcaptor Sakura)

Singer: Michelle Branch

Band: Parokya ni Edgar

Music: Pop

Song: Could it be any harder

Author: Harper Lee

Book; To kill a Mocking bird

Color: Silver

Country: Philippines

Cell phone brand: Nokia (Para sakin, yun ang pinaka madaling gamitin)

Perfume: Curve

Flower: Orchids

Pet: Shih Tzu

Game: Chess

Sport: Volleyball

Subject: Abnormal Psychology

Clothing Line: Gap

Shoe brand: Nike

Pen brand: Pilot

Cuisine: Italian

Drink: Iced Tea

Fast food: Jollibee

Pizza house: Yellow Cab

Pizza flavor: Meat lovers

Restaurant: Itallianis

Cake shop: Red Ribbon

Cake flavor: Chocolate Mousse

Ice cream flavor: Strawberry

Cereal: Kellogs Corn flakes

Season: Autumn (Kung dito lang sa Pinas, rainy season na lang)

Likes and Dislikes

Likes (in a person): Loyal, Simple, Understanding, Friendly, Sensitive, Generous, Thoughtful, Caring, Helpful, Sweet, Has a good sense of humor

Dislikes (in a person): Arrogant, Likes so much attention, Insensitive, Selfish, Narrow minded, Back stabbers, Liars

Personal Issues

Crush/es: Akira Sendoh (Slam Dunk), Spike Spiegel (Cowboy Bebop), Matt Damon, and Sousuke Sagara (Full Metal Panic)

Ambition: Lately ko lang na realize na wala pa pala akong ambition as of the moment

Thing that you cannot live without: Eye glass (Kung material thing lang ha!)

Thing that you will save when your house is caught up in a fire: My favorite pillow

Person that you will save when the ship that you are in sinks: Pwede bang people? Ang hirap pag isa lang eh. I'll save my mom and my sister.

Name of your first born son: Ginter ang first name niya. Dapat may kasunod pa pero wala pa ako maisip sa ngayon.

Name of your first born daughter: Wala pa ako maisip dito.

Your weekly allowance: 750 pesos.

Fears: Spiders and separation from my mom.

Names of your pets: Dexter, Drew, Buchukoy, Kitty, Spika, Batik, Polka, Dot, Barack

Meet my Barkada

Yes, that is me, on the left. I am not that good looking, but NO, that doesn't mean that my friends are like me. As a matter of fact, they're the most beautiful people you'll ever meet.

We call our barkada 'UTUT', which stands for 'Unyon nang mga Taong Ubod nang Tamad'. But at one point in time, some of us deviated from the theme of our group and thus was almost kicked out of our group. But everything is fine now! Thank goodness!=P

Anyway, I will now introduce my barkada to you!

First up!

This is Virginia Nisperos. We call by her nickname Mayie. Mayie is from Cagayan, not from Cagayan de Oro but from Cagayan Valley in the Northern part of the Philippines. When we were in our freshmen year, she was the most grade conscious among us (and believe, this sucks for anyone of us who doesn't study very well) and was often teased with one of our classmates named John Uy. (walang censorship dito!) Perhaps she was the reason why I joined our barkada, that is because she was the one who introduced me to the others. (kinapalan ko na nga lang ang mukha ko sa kanila nung una eh para may kasama lang ako) Kung partnership ang pag uusapan, marahil ang kapareha ni Mayie is si Justine. They always go home together, eat together, enroll together, go to the CR together, etc. They're pretty much glued to each other. Mayie doesn't admit anything about her love life, that is why I am curious to know who she really likes. Hihihi...

The next one is Ma. Justine Pangilinan. We simply call her Dul. (I really don't now why we bestowed this nickname on her...well actually it was Mayie who did bestowed it on her) She is from Tarlac, also located at the Northern part. She is probably the most young looking one among us, although she is the second oldest. (I am the oldest! Darn!) She is very obedient and probably the most soft spoken. She was in the messiest trouble that ever entered our group, the strange love triangle between her, a pig, and a whore! (it's too complicated... you have to be irrational to understand the whole story. It took me a week to force myself to be irrational just to tell you this part) Technically she was not part of it, she was just involved because of the irrationality of the pig and the whore. (sabi ko sa inyo eh, irrational na talaga ako!)

Up next is Abegail Joyce Sabayo. People often mistake her surname as 'Sa Bio', meaning 'sa Biology'. We call her Abby. She is from Novaliches. (thank God! malapit lapit na samin) Not only is she the whitest in complexion among us, she's also the whitest person I've ever met in my entire life. If she becomes a commercial model for a whitening soap or lotion, that brand would definitely sell to the max!!! (that would be scary!) She's the mataray one. Next would probably be Mayie. Her laugh is contagious and is literally, 'He-he-he-he...'. She's pratically blind without her glasses or her contact lenses. It takes forever before she finishes her thing inside the CR. (it sometimes makes me think that she's flushed down the toilet while she's inside) She is very passionate about baking.

Then there is Maria Rebecca Sarmiento. We are fond of calling her Becky. (pero hindi niya kamukha si Becky nang Princess Sarah) She lives in Bulacan. (hindi ko alam kung North or South siya) She's the demon among us, always torturing us with her slapsticks! Slapsticks are those slaps at the back or at any part of your body that really hurt. It makes you wanna kill her and throw her corpse out of the window afterwards. (as a revenge) Although she only does this when she's laughing or giggling because of someone's joke. (so you might want to keep your distance from her all the time because you'll never know when is the next joke coming, better be prepared) She is the number one leaver, this means she is always in a hurry to go home.

And the last one is Ma. Shenny Joy Santiago. We call her Shenny or Shen. She is Ilocana, coming from Laoag there in the North pole este Northern area of the Philippines pala. She speaks Ilocano dialect. She is a member of the CSJ or College of Science Journal and as a matter of fact, she is the Associate Editor. She loves Jude Law and has a huge crush on the Editor of some famous newspaper. Hehehe... (kay Mayie lang pala ang walang censorship) She is the gossip girl of the group. She has a huge number of crushes, but the two aforementioned are her greatest crushes. She hated the fact that we were always dismissed early on our BMA II Laboratory class, but she eventually accepted it. (wala naman siya magagawa eh...hehehe...)

I am so happy to have met them!=)