The Hate of Hating Someone

"Wag niya akong subukan!"

I'm a compassionate girl pero ang compassion ko ay may limits din. Mabait ako kung sa mabait, pero kung ayaw mong magpaawat sa pagiging insensitive mo, eh wag mo na akong kausapin. May pride ako, and yes, paminsan sumosobra rin, pero I make it a point na sumobra siya kapag nasa tamang position ako. Kapag alam kong nasa tamang lugar ako, talagang hindi ako mag so-sorry sayo. Initiative is the key in winning me back. A simple 'sorry' will be enough for me. After nun, I'm sure lalambot narin ako and mag so-sorry din.

So what's with that? Eh kasi may insensitive kasi akong friend na nakakasakit na sakin. I was so concerned about her pa naman, tapos gaganunin lang niya ako!!! How dare her! Thinking na ang dami ko pa namang naitulong sa kanya in the past! (Yes, I'm counting her blessings brought about by our friendship) Oh and I just remembered, kapag ako naman ang nangangailangan hindi naman niya ako tinutulungan! I'm not asking for her help naman, yung simpleng pagiging thankful lang by being nice to me ang hinihiling ko and yet hindi parin niya magawa. Instead, she gives me this nasty facial expression pa dahil naging concerned lang ako sa kanya.

Kung alam lang niya kung gaano ko siya tinitiis tuwing nagkikita kami. Hindi ko siya tinitiis dahil friend ko siya, tinitiis ko siya dahil kawawa lang siya sakin kapag nagalit ako. Kapag nagalit kasi ako, nananakit ako physically at brutally pa. I can honestly say na kaya ko talaga pumatay nang tao kapag nagagalit ako without any remorse afterwards. Hindi ako nagyayabang o naninindak, kaso yun talaga ang totoo.

So ikaw na pinatatamaan ko nito, ayaw kitang patayin dahil kahit pano mahal parin kita, kaya naman MAGTINO KA NA INSENSITIVE! HINDI MO PAG AARI ANG MUNDONG ITO! HINDI LAHAT NANG TAO LULUHOD SAYO AT MAGTIYATIYAGA SA UGALI MO! MAGING SENSITIBO KA NAMAN!

Ulitin mo pa ang ginawa mo sakin at malilintikan ka na talaga! Kung natatakot ka na marinig ang mga pagkakamali mo (na I'm sure ide-deny mo kasi alam mo na totoo!) at mabara sa mga sasabihin ko, wag mo na ako subukan!

Wag na wag mo nang i-brought up itong topic na ito sakin. If you want to prove to me of how sensitive you are, (Kung may balak kang magbago) just shut the hell up and show me how sorry you were! Kung hindi ka talaga sensitive, then let me just hit you in the face! Or just DIE!

And did I just entitled this entry as "The Hate of Hating Someone"? Perhaps it should have been "The Love of Hating Someone"?=P

Autograph

Ever since bata pa ako, mahilig na talaga ako sumagot nang mga autograph books. Actually, mahilig akong sumagot nang kahit anung tanong, mababaw man o super personal. I answer practically just about everything! Hehehe... Kaya naman ngayon ay ilalagay ko ang ilang facts about me sa isang autograph-like na format. Wahahaha!!! You can't stop me from disclosing dark things about myself!

Basics

Name: Marie Kris Mañalac Herrera

Nickname: Marie Kris, Marie, Kris, Mk, Botch, Botchay

Age: 20

Birthday: July 29, 1988

Birthplace: Pasay City

Zodiac sign: Leo

Chinese zodiac sign: Dragon

Vital statistics: 34-30-36 (Hala ni-reveal talaga! Who cares right?)

Civil status: Single

Religion: Roman Catholic

Height: 5"4 or 5"6

Weight: 110 lbs

Shoe size: 8 1/2

Eye grade: Left-500/ Right-450

Education

Schools:

Little Dipper Elementary School, Cavite City (Nursery)

La Consolacion College, Mendiola, Manila (Prep school)

O.B. Montessori Center Inc. Sta. ana, Manila (Grade school)

Saint Paul University Quezon City (High school)

University of Santo Tomas España, Manila (College, BS Psychology)

Favorites

Actor: Matt Damon

Actress: Natalie Portman

Movie: Transformers

Director: Andrew Adamson

TV program: E News

Cartoon: Full Metal Panic Fumoffu

Cartoon character: Suppi or Spinel Sun (Cardcaptor Sakura)

Singer: Michelle Branch

Band: Parokya ni Edgar

Music: Pop

Song: Could it be any harder

Author: Harper Lee

Book; To kill a Mocking bird

Color: Silver

Country: Philippines

Cell phone brand: Nokia (Para sakin, yun ang pinaka madaling gamitin)

Perfume: Curve

Flower: Orchids

Pet: Shih Tzu

Game: Chess

Sport: Volleyball

Subject: Abnormal Psychology

Clothing Line: Gap

Shoe brand: Nike

Pen brand: Pilot

Cuisine: Italian

Drink: Iced Tea

Fast food: Jollibee

Pizza house: Yellow Cab

Pizza flavor: Meat lovers

Restaurant: Itallianis

Cake shop: Red Ribbon

Cake flavor: Chocolate Mousse

Ice cream flavor: Strawberry

Cereal: Kellogs Corn flakes

Season: Autumn (Kung dito lang sa Pinas, rainy season na lang)

Likes and Dislikes

Likes (in a person): Loyal, Simple, Understanding, Friendly, Sensitive, Generous, Thoughtful, Caring, Helpful, Sweet, Has a good sense of humor

Dislikes (in a person): Arrogant, Likes so much attention, Insensitive, Selfish, Narrow minded, Back stabbers, Liars

Personal Issues

Crush/es: Akira Sendoh (Slam Dunk), Spike Spiegel (Cowboy Bebop), Matt Damon, and Sousuke Sagara (Full Metal Panic)

Ambition: Lately ko lang na realize na wala pa pala akong ambition as of the moment

Thing that you cannot live without: Eye glass (Kung material thing lang ha!)

Thing that you will save when your house is caught up in a fire: My favorite pillow

Person that you will save when the ship that you are in sinks: Pwede bang people? Ang hirap pag isa lang eh. I'll save my mom and my sister.

Name of your first born son: Ginter ang first name niya. Dapat may kasunod pa pero wala pa ako maisip sa ngayon.

Name of your first born daughter: Wala pa ako maisip dito.

Your weekly allowance: 750 pesos.

Fears: Spiders and separation from my mom.

Names of your pets: Dexter, Drew, Buchukoy, Kitty, Spika, Batik, Polka, Dot, Barack

Meet my Barkada

Yes, that is me, on the left. I am not that good looking, but NO, that doesn't mean that my friends are like me. As a matter of fact, they're the most beautiful people you'll ever meet.

We call our barkada 'UTUT', which stands for 'Unyon nang mga Taong Ubod nang Tamad'. But at one point in time, some of us deviated from the theme of our group and thus was almost kicked out of our group. But everything is fine now! Thank goodness!=P

Anyway, I will now introduce my barkada to you!

First up!

This is Virginia Nisperos. We call by her nickname Mayie. Mayie is from Cagayan, not from Cagayan de Oro but from Cagayan Valley in the Northern part of the Philippines. When we were in our freshmen year, she was the most grade conscious among us (and believe, this sucks for anyone of us who doesn't study very well) and was often teased with one of our classmates named John Uy. (walang censorship dito!) Perhaps she was the reason why I joined our barkada, that is because she was the one who introduced me to the others. (kinapalan ko na nga lang ang mukha ko sa kanila nung una eh para may kasama lang ako) Kung partnership ang pag uusapan, marahil ang kapareha ni Mayie is si Justine. They always go home together, eat together, enroll together, go to the CR together, etc. They're pretty much glued to each other. Mayie doesn't admit anything about her love life, that is why I am curious to know who she really likes. Hihihi...

The next one is Ma. Justine Pangilinan. We simply call her Dul. (I really don't now why we bestowed this nickname on her...well actually it was Mayie who did bestowed it on her) She is from Tarlac, also located at the Northern part. She is probably the most young looking one among us, although she is the second oldest. (I am the oldest! Darn!) She is very obedient and probably the most soft spoken. She was in the messiest trouble that ever entered our group, the strange love triangle between her, a pig, and a whore! (it's too complicated... you have to be irrational to understand the whole story. It took me a week to force myself to be irrational just to tell you this part) Technically she was not part of it, she was just involved because of the irrationality of the pig and the whore. (sabi ko sa inyo eh, irrational na talaga ako!)

Up next is Abegail Joyce Sabayo. People often mistake her surname as 'Sa Bio', meaning 'sa Biology'. We call her Abby. She is from Novaliches. (thank God! malapit lapit na samin) Not only is she the whitest in complexion among us, she's also the whitest person I've ever met in my entire life. If she becomes a commercial model for a whitening soap or lotion, that brand would definitely sell to the max!!! (that would be scary!) She's the mataray one. Next would probably be Mayie. Her laugh is contagious and is literally, 'He-he-he-he...'. She's pratically blind without her glasses or her contact lenses. It takes forever before she finishes her thing inside the CR. (it sometimes makes me think that she's flushed down the toilet while she's inside) She is very passionate about baking.

Then there is Maria Rebecca Sarmiento. We are fond of calling her Becky. (pero hindi niya kamukha si Becky nang Princess Sarah) She lives in Bulacan. (hindi ko alam kung North or South siya) She's the demon among us, always torturing us with her slapsticks! Slapsticks are those slaps at the back or at any part of your body that really hurt. It makes you wanna kill her and throw her corpse out of the window afterwards. (as a revenge) Although she only does this when she's laughing or giggling because of someone's joke. (so you might want to keep your distance from her all the time because you'll never know when is the next joke coming, better be prepared) She is the number one leaver, this means she is always in a hurry to go home.

And the last one is Ma. Shenny Joy Santiago. We call her Shenny or Shen. She is Ilocana, coming from Laoag there in the North pole este Northern area of the Philippines pala. She speaks Ilocano dialect. She is a member of the CSJ or College of Science Journal and as a matter of fact, she is the Associate Editor. She loves Jude Law and has a huge crush on the Editor of some famous newspaper. Hehehe... (kay Mayie lang pala ang walang censorship) She is the gossip girl of the group. She has a huge number of crushes, but the two aforementioned are her greatest crushes. She hated the fact that we were always dismissed early on our BMA II Laboratory class, but she eventually accepted it. (wala naman siya magagawa eh...hehehe...)

I am so happy to have met them!=)

Why I Hate Christmas

Don't get me wrong, I love the holidays because there are no classes plus you can sleep anytime you want! (well at least I am allowed to sleep whenever I want to, I don't know with you?) I can pig out and be extremely messy in my room. And the most fun part during the holiday season is that I can take my bath just when I feel the urge to do it! Hahaha!!! That's how gross I can become when the holiday season strikes!!! Pretty disgusting right? Nyahahaha!!!

I'm pretty much free and controlling over my life during the holidays, but there's this one thing that upsets me about the holidays, and that is the season's high light which is the Christmas Day itself! Darn, how I wish I could learn to love Christmas just like the rest of the people in this world. Loving Christmas might be the second hardest thing to accomplish for me. (the hardest thing to do is to love Chemistry) Just when the whole world, or at least half of it, is celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ, I sit all alone in my room anticipating the coming of the first day of school the following year.

Ever since I was a child, I hated Christmas already. Perhaps it is because Santa Clause never really gave me what I really wished for when I was little. Want to know what I kept on wishing to Santa when I was a kid? Hehehe... I remembered constantly wishing for a big set of Polly Pocket, and that darn Santa Clause never gave me one! Instead, he gave me a Barie Doll to be groomed! What a pain in the ass that Santa was! Up until now, I just couldn't get over what Santa did to me when I was young! From that point on, my grudge against Santa had lead me to this feeling of hatred towards Christmas in general. I resented any man who looks just like him---fat, red, half-bald, womanizer, doesn't know how to keep his promises, mentally retarded, no permanent address, ego maniac, delusional, promiscuous, rapist, pedophile, pervert, etc. (am I still talking about the same Santa that a lot of you know? maybe I overdid it a bit) Ah basta, I don't like him!

Ang moral lesson dito ay wag maging mataba katulad ni Santa Clause! Obese kasi siya eh, ayan tuloy, naapektuhan ang kanyang cognitive ability. Tsk tsk tsk!

***I don't believe in Santa!***

Facts of schooling

Sa tagal ko nang nag aaral sa paaralan (syempre!), madami narin akong nakilalang tao! Iba ibang personalidad at ugali ang aking nakilala na. Marami rami narin pero kaya ko paring bilangin sa aking mga daliri ang bilang nang mga klasipikasyon nang mga taong aking na nakilala sa eskwelahan. At eto sila:

• Mababait na kaibigan- Eto yung mga taong tutulungan ka sa sandaling mangailangan ka. Ultimo napkin kapag may period ka eh bibigyan ka. Eto ang mga taong nangungutang pero nagababayad din. Kapag naluluha, sila ang nauunang mag bigay nang handkerchief sayo para hindi puros uhog ang ilong mo pagkatapos. Ang generous magbigay nang regalo tuwing Birthday mo at kapag Pasko. Yung nangangako at tinutupad ang pangako nila. yung tumutulong sa assignment mo sa pamamagitan nang pagpapahiram sayo nang sarili nilang assignment at sa pagpapakopya nito sayo nang walang halong sama nang loob. Eto yung mga tumutulong sayo sa recitation kapag nagkataong tinawag ka nang prof mo nang wala sa oras.


• Clef-To!- Eto yung palaging makati ang mga palad. Gustong-gusto ang gamit nang ibang tao, kulang na lang sambahin ito! Probably walang trabaho ang magulang. Madalas nasa Chapel para maghugas nang mga kasalanan nila. Eto yung masarap sabunutan!


• Manyakis- Hipo nang hipo sa waistline. Intimidated kasi mas sexy ako sa kanila. Matatabang parang baboy ang mga ito. Akala nila sila ay si Atlas na parating hawak ang mundo.


• Far sighted people- Kainggit-inggit! Kagila-gilalas! Madalas na nakaupo sa pinaka likod na row sa classroom. Ang kinokopyahan tuwing exams ay malalayong tao. Pag nangboboso, nasa labas nang CR.


• Bitzes- Atribida. Usually pangit sila pati BOBO. Nakasusulasok ang presensya. Mabaho.


• Comedians- Masarap kasama pero kadalasan ay barat. Madalas sila yung mga 'chubby' people. Sila yung mga sincere pati malalalim mag isip.


• Users- Hindi sila 'friendly'. Mahilig silang magtapon nang basura after nilang gamitin ito. They usually form a group of their own. Mahilig magpa 'prettify' para magmukha silang appealing sa mga tao. Eto yung mga mayayaman pero hindi mahal nang mga magulang.


• Smarties- Grade conscious SOBRA! Naka laminate lahat nang mga test papers nila at naka tabi sa fireproof na case sa bahay nila. Straight forward sa mga gusto nila. Can easily ditch their friends just to attain a very high grade. Leader palagi sa mga group works. Self confident. Puyat parati.


• Inferiors- Halos kabaligtaran nang mga Smarties.


• Smartferios- Sila yung mga Geniuses! Hindi lang halata kasi super low nang kanilang profile sa class.


• Pilosopo- Magaling mamilosopo. Magandang kaibiganin kasi kapag may kaaway ka, patay kagad sila sa mga arguments niya. Kadalasan hindi sila nag a-abugado at hindi din sila aktibo sa Debate org.


• Ogags- Gago for short. Eto yung mga patapon na ang buhay. Puros ka-iligalan ang mga ginagawa. Palaging nakangiti at tatawa tawa lang. Kadalasan mga lalaki sila.


• Bahay Kubo- Wala masyadong social life ang mga taong ito. Mas close sila sa pamilya nila kontra sa mga kaibigan. Mahihiyain.


• Broccoli- Eto yung mga green minded people. 24/7 silang color green. Ang hilig nila ay ang mga bastos na topics. Hindi sila boyfriend or girlfriend material. Hoarders sila pagdating sa mga joke books, comics, at magazines na color green. They participate actively in class. Color green ang highlighters nila.


• Jologs- Sila yung mga pinuwersang maging out of place. Hate sila nang marami sa hindi malamang dahilan. Para sa maraming tao, salot sila pero ang totoo yung mga nagiisip pang salot sila ang totoong salot. Madaldal. Eto yung taong baon sa utang pero hindi naman umuutang sa kahit sino. They need to please everyone because everyone thinks that she needs to please them.


• KIA- Know-it-all.


• Vain- Maraming varicous veins sa mukha kaya conscious at parating nag sasalamin. Mga walang camera kaya pag nakakita nang camera eh pa-picture nang pa-picture. Magaling mang ubos nang battery nang camera.


• Mangungain- Hindi kumakain sa bahay. Makapal ang mukha dahil mahilig umubos nang pagkain nang iba. Di tinatablan nang bala.


• Bulkasil- Super ang insensitive! Utos nang utos! As in to the max! Tapos hindi marunong magpasalamat. Padala nang padala.


• Addict mobile subscriber- Adik sa text. 24/7 naka unlimited! Mahilig mag group message. Pwede nang mensahero. Post office ang binabagsakan pagka gradute.


• Is-nobish- Matagal mo nang kaklase, minsan ka lang kung pansinin. May pagka user.


• Plirt- Kalandian lang ang maipag mamayabang na katangian.


• Koreans- Hindi sila galing Korea pero puros Korean novelas ang bukang bibig.

Yan pa ang mga natatandaan ko sa mga nakilala ko na. Marami pa sila pero eto lang muna ang ilalagay ko. Dadagdagan ko na lang ulit pag naalala ko na yung iba pa.

O? Sino kayo dyan? Aminin!!! Comment lang kayo!

Happy days are soon to be gone

It's November 3, 2008 today and you know what that means? It means that tomorrow is going to be November 4, 2008! Hehehe... And it also means that I'll be going back to school again after a month's break from studying.

Our sem break is over and I'm not putting the word 'finally' into it. Usually, when it's time to go back to school again, I turn all giggly and excited because I know that I'll be seeing my friends in school again and more importantly, I'll be having my weekly allowance again! Yipee! But surprisingly, I don't feel like that right now. I have mix emotions, I'm feeling a little bit of happiness with a little bit of nervousness and I'm also SCARED!

"Aba, hindi ata madali ang buhay estudyante lalo na sa College level noh! I'm not exaggerating if I tell you na parang nag ta-trabaho narin ako habang nag aaral! Just imagine, I drink barrels of coffee (Now that's an exaggeration!) just to keep my eyes open to finish our homeworks and projects and to study for our quizzes and major exams! (Lucky you if you are not doing this! Eh ako, hindi ko kaya kasi na walang kape!) I even have to beg to my profesors to lower down the passing grade just so I could make it to the cut off! (I'm really am a beggar now huh? So my photo fits!) Wahahaha!!!=P"

My call time for tomorrow is at 7 AM and I'll have to meet my friend in front of our Department office to line up for our pre-advising. I'm writing this up because I might forget all about this. Hahaha!!!

It's time for me to take on the harsh world called College AGAIN. I just hope that at the end of this semester, I'm still alive and kicking.

Note: Don't be like me, scared and nervous of what is going to happen. Remember, that if you pray and try to do your best, nothing is going to stop you from reaching your goals! Good luck to us all!

Blogs! Random! Blogs!

Let me start this entry by saying that I'm new here! Hehehe... And that my target readers are Pinoys or Filipinos or Pilipinos that are bored with their lame lives! Just kidding! Well, to tell you the truth, I'm the one who is bored here! That's why I created this crappy blog that I wished to sell out to as many people as possible. Parang business lang ha!

I already have a friendster and a multiply account and in each of those I have a blog area wherein I write most of what my brain dictates me to write. My friendster blog was definitely a flat zero blog account. Nobody reads it and nobody wants to read it, much to my disdain. As to my multiply account, my blog was a much better success compared to my friendster blog. I was happy with my multiply blog, but apparently I don't feel like I am getting to anyone there. (Well except of course to my contacts because my setting is set for my contacts to view all my blog entries)

Now maybe you are wondering right now why I registered in this blog website thingy (I don't know it's appropirate name so forgive me for calling it like this) right? I registered here because of a famous celebrity here in the Philippines that was featured in one of the cable channels here that I happened to see. He actually has one account here and writes in his blog, I guess, almost on a regular basis. Now I don't want to reveal who he really is because he might actually come to read this post and might discover that he is my inspiration for doing this thing called blogging here! Hehehe... How embarassing! Well, I've counted the odds of him seeing my blog, particularly this blog entry, and I've come to this result that he will never see it even a billion years after his death. (He's dead alright! I know! I'll give him peace!)

So what's with the name of the blog? Why call your blog, 'Nevertheless, this is different!'? Well because this is not your average ordinary blog! I don't know the universal meaning of blog and I'm too lazy to go search for its meaning, so I assigned my own meaning to it! For me, a blog means an online journal. Wait, there is no solid-like blog now is there? Well if there is, just post a comment on this and correct me will ya? Thanks! Ahem! As I was saying, a blog for me is an online journal. Online means that an internet connection is needed to operate. A journal means that it is like a diary where you place all of what you had experienced in your life. So with this meaning, I will deviate a little by putting in not just my experiences, but also a whole more stuff! Trust me, oftentimes it will be RANDOM. So I have to warn you now people! There's one crazy little person here that is about to spread some of her craziness to you! Hehehe...

Soon, I'll be sharing things to you. Good. Bad. Whatever it is, definitely must be random.